So I guess this is the new year and I don't feel any different. Not that I should, but I think I should be feeling something rather than nothing at all. I don't think that I should be by myself, bored out of my wits while the rest of the world is swimming in a pool of confetti and drinking in the names of everyone they know. This is what I get for not planning ahead (or being old enough to go out to bars and clubs, as unappealing to me as they are, with my friends, but that was and is beyond my control. Unborn children have no say in when their parents get it on, unfortunately).

I'm thinking I'm going to start being more honest with myself, not just because I need a steady list of resolutions to attempt and keep up with for the year of '08, but more because I need to know where I stand in my life. That may or may not make any sense, but this blog is for me and not for you, so I shouldn't have to explain myself. I get it!

I need to understand that at my age, I limitations and restrictions that will keep me from getting to certain people and places and will stand in my way of achieving certain things, at least for now. I need to understand that hey, I can't say or do everything that comes to mind because it may not be the appropriate time for it. I need to enjoy the days of my youth, as much as I want to grow up and get out and go.

I need to stop being so impulsive. I need to have more self-control. I need to speak up and shut up, accordingly. I need to quit trying to fool myself into believing things that essentially are not true and may never be true.

I need to remind myself from time to time of my good attributes and acknowledge the bad ones that need correcting. I need to remind the people that I love how much they mean to me and really find a way to express my gratitude for their existence in my dysfunctional life because let's face it, it feels good to know that someone cares about you. In a world where nights of celebration are spent at home, sitting in a lonely room, writing about things you should do but may never be brave enough to, it's nice to be reminded that someone appreciates you (even in your vegetative state).

Ideally, this year I will meet someone who doesn't feel the need to really DO anything but will still enjoy my company. Ideally that someone will be of the male species and he will be a damn good kisser. That my friends, is a must.

On a different note, Briana and I are the creators of two of the best "sock people" to ever be sewn together on a slow, Sunday evening. Their names are Gregoire and Camille and family portraits will become available as soon as Bri and I can "conceive" their Chinese children. Because everyone knows I love them slanted-eyed suckers!

We'll see if I can keep this blogging business up or not!